Busy Week

16/02/2014 – Sunday

My somewhat busy college life!

     This has been just another week of fun yet stressful days in INTI. Assignments, projects and examinations are filling up my schedules. English lecturer gave my class (including me) the deadline for our group assignment/presentation and a new online assignment which I could not seem to understand. Besides that, my self-development lecturer gave us a new group assignment which involves approximately 10 to 13 people and the deadlines for the assignments. Lastly, my business management lecturer tested us on the first six chapters of business management and scheduled us for our individual presentation.

     Briefing for Self-Development assignment

Oh my gosh, why are all the deadlines so clashing so harmoniously?! Although, I guess I will be able to complete my assignments in time, so I need not worry about these minor issues. In fact, I’m done with most of my individual assignments. The remaining assignments would be the group assignments and for that, I will just go with the flow of my groups.

     Anyways, it’s still all fun and laughter for me. I got closer with a few people or rather two people from my class. One of them would be a guy called Tee Yang, it is funny how we made it a habit to buy ‘Nescafe’ (brand of coffee) from the cafeteria in college during break time for Business Management class. It gets boring and I’ll start feeling sleepy after every hour of business management lecture, so Tee Yang and I pretty much tried all the different flavors ‘Nescafe’ has to offer us.

Someone said with confidence "I am taller than you." I proved her wrong. :3 

     The other person would be Kim Kim. Everyone calls her Kimmy but I feel Kim Kim fits her best. Weird yet ordinary, that girl is Kim Kim. xD Once again, it’s funny how I once said that we might get along well few weeks ago because that ‘expectation’ actually came true. For the past two weeks, I enjoyed spending my days with her. I was busy bullying her, annoying her, confiscating her ‘Ipad’ and teasing her throughout the week. Gosh, I suddenly sounded like such a bully. ><!!! Despite that, from my opinion, I think we got along quite well. I went out for lunch and brunch with her before and in between classes.

  Lunch break with Tee Yang and Kim Kim, my first Gongcha!

    It seems that I have lost contact or haven’t been communicating with most of my high-school friends for quite a while since most of them are too busy with their own lives to bother about me. So, college friends are my life right now.

     Moving along, I replaced someone as a waiter on Saturday in ‘Good Friends Restaurant & Café’ that opened up last week. It was a relatively relaxing part-time job since my previous part-time jobs were hectic. The employers were nice as I was guided well and gave me the privilege of eating certain food from their menu.

   Lastly, I managed to cook baked cheese macaroni & chicken with cream of mushroom on Saturday and cheese baked rice on Sunday. My dad used to laugh at me when I wanted to be a chef in the past. It’s a small start but I can’t wait to ‘rub it in his face’ for underestimating a young child’s dream.   

 Cheese Baked Rice with sausages & chicken. ^^

  

Happy Valentine's Day~

14/02/2014 – Friday

     Happy Valentine’s Day! Although, it’s Happy Single’s Day for me since I don’t have a girlfriend and never had one before. This makes my 18^th year of spending  Valentine’s day, alone. As much as I hate to admit it’s Valentine’s day, even though it’s just another Friday, the mood for this ‘lovers’ day is in the air.

     First of all, this ‘special’ day is taken advantage by business opportunities.  In my college alone, there are booths around college selling stuff for Valentine’s day! “I should do that too, but oh well, I don’t have any bright ideas so just forget it.”

     Anyways, just this morning, I saw a guy confessing to a girl in the hallway. It’s very obvious that they weren’t couples. Come on dude, you can confess to her any day! So, I walked out of my classroom and was heading to get myself a drink and there they were, standing awkwardly by the hallway. The guy said something and gave an awkward hug (since I was there), he probably hated me since I spoiled his ‘moment’. I gave them my ‘I don’t give a f*ck face’ and looked away. “Nothing wrong with that, right?” :D Although, I did end up snickering after I walked past them and they probably noticed that too but I don’t care.

     Valentine’s day, so what does this day remind me of? It brings me back to last year. I was still chatting daily with my senior then and the day before Valentine’s day, I told her that I wanted to make something for the girl I loved. That girl would be my highschool love. I still remembered that I wanted to bake her chocolate cupcakes or something for Valentine’s day and my senior just had to say that some other guy might be giving her chocolate.  It didn’t happen because I was still inexperienced in baking and she wasn’t even around. She went back to her hometown or something.

     Hm…so what did I do today? I went for college in the morning till afternoon. I rushed home and went for gym. After that, I went for some grocery shopping and started my little cooking project. I actually planned it few days ago since I won’t have a date or partner for Valentine’s day. Pasta baked with mozzarella cheese and roasted chicken seasoned with honey & herbs. The final touches were cream of mushroom and a mixture of peppers.  The pasta was a little disappointing but the chicken was fantastic. Overall, I was satisfied with my ‘work of art’. >///<

   Never had I known how to cook, but here's my beginning. :) 

  In the past, I couldn’t cook for the girl I love when she was sick. I only knew how to go out and buy ‘takeaways’ for her. Then, I remember carrying her to the dinning table for lunch and back to her bed for her to rest. I had always wanted to bake something nice or cook something yummy for her, but I didn’t even have the slightest idea of where to start! In the future, never will I let that happen again. I’m eager to learn all sorts of dishes and bake all sorts of pastries for my future girl. ^^

Oh well, the past is past, I guess that won’t ever happen. I’ve heard she’s gotten a boyfriend recently from my friend. “The girl I love has a boyfriend, oh wow, how should I react?” It’s not a big surprise and it didn’t have a big impact on me because I’ve already expected such a thing to happen, sooner or later. Hopefully, she’ll be happy with her new boyfriend and I hope the guy knows how to take care of her.

For me, I’ll just wait for her, even if she’ll have 3 or 5 or 10 boyfriends, I’ll probably still wait for her if my feelings for her are unchanged. You may call me stupid or insane but that’s who I am, my feelings for her are stubborn. Although, I hope to find a girl who will love me as much as I love her and maybe, I won’t be spending Valentine’s day alone next year. ^^

One sentence says it all.

Never has there been a day that I have not thought about her.

English Journal...2 :D

22.01.2013 - Wednesday

Random thoughts of mine

     It is the second week of my college life in INTI College Subang. It seems that I have somewhat accustomed to the environment or culture of studying in college after just two weeks because I feel that going for class during odd hours and having lunch at unusual hours is a regular routine for me. :3

     Anyways, the event that was held today, to celebrate Sean’s (my classmate) birthday was wonderful. J We went straight to ‘Shakespeare’ after a boring yet stressful class of Business Management. After that, we took group pictures, sang songs and so on. It was fun because I got the opportunity to strengthen the bond with my newly found friends and laugh like nobody’s business. ><

Half of my class is here weyh. xD

      Moving along, the phrase ‘Do not judge a book by its cover’ has been very appealing to me this week because I’ve recently met a girl from my class whom is seemingly ordinary but surprisingly extraordinary. :3 My first impression of her was that she is an averagely pretty girl with a quiet and timid personality. She is unimpressive and ordinary was what I initially thought but as I’ve gotten to know more about her through our conversations over the social media called ‘Facebook’, it surprised me to know that she is not such a boring person after all.  Her interests are my dislikes. For example, she thinks that snakes are cute while I think that snakes are sinister and vicious. Despite that, I have a feeling that we can get along with each other and will be able to be good friends. :D

        “Who is she?”

The answer to that question is for me to know and for you to find out. :P This encounter with her has reminded me not to be so ignorant and hasty to judge others by their appearance before actually knowing them. :/ Although, I’ve always had this bad habit of judging others unfairly till I make random assumptions about them. >< It is not a simple task to break this habit of mine but at least, I am making the effort to do so. :3

     Lastly, these three words which are stress, pressure and incapable has been haunting my mind because honestly, I’m not doing so well with my studies. It’s only the beginning but yet, I already feel like crashing. L

     “Good luck, Bryan.”

I hope that this encouragement of mine would last me for the rest of the….semester. ==…   

Random picture of the 19 year old birthday boy (Sean) and I. Lols

English Journal

     Heee...so yeah, college started like 1 week ago and it'll be my second week in college starting tomorrow. I met many new friends and had a great time. We didn't study much last week since it only started so there was plenty of time to socialize. My class consists of approximately 30 people, more girls than boys. Wakaka, there are 3 International students and the rest are Malaysians. It's fun meeting a whole lot of new people of different personalities, can't wait for what's coming ahead. The essay below is actually my English 'homework' assigned by my lecturer, Ms Jenny. She told us to write about 4 descriptive essays about our everyday life (journal). It's a simple task since I'm a blogger, so yeah, just sharing it out! ^^   

A random shot of my classroom in college. xP


19/01/2013 – Sunday

INTI Orientation Day 1

    

     The awaited day is finally here. It has been one terribly long and boring month of being lifeless at home. 9^th of Jan 2014 was the day I turned into a college student.

     I woke up early to prepare myself for college the orientation starts at 9am. It felt like any other ordinary morning because I do not feel any difference, no anxiety, no excitement but my mind was occupied with events that might or will occur in college. As I finished my breakfast which was just a cup of ‘Nestum’, I hurried off to college for orientation.

     The road which was filled with cars was somewhat frustrating because most people were rushing to work at that time. It was a challenge to maneuver my motorcycle in that traffic condition even when motorcycles are not usually affected by bad traffic conditions.

     Anyways, as I’ve arrived in college, I forced a smile on my ever emotionless face and thought to myself “It’s a new day, it’s a new life, what has passed should be left in the past because now it’s time for a new beginning. After 13 years of education filled with unnecessary uniforms and rules, I’m finally a college student.”

     I went to register myself for INTI orientation and was directed to the Auditorium for orientation. Before the occasion started, I managed to socialize with a few people and made new acquaintances. Some of them are my course-mates and some are not but that does not matter because I enjoy meeting new people. 

     During the orientation, they gave a few speeches which were boring but informative. It may seem rude of me to say that but at least, I did not slumber during those speeches. After that, we had lunch and played some games prepared by a non-profit organization known as INTIMA. The day went on as it was, people having fun with smiles on their faces and tons of laughter.

       “How did I feel?” If that is your question then my answer is, I felt relieved.  I felt relieved because on my first day of college, my cold heart actually felt slightly warm from being a college student.

-The End-

Written by,
Bryan Yeong.

(Cold-HeartedMe)      

This is my English Assignment Group! :D 

Back to Gym.

02/01/2014 – Thursday

     Happy New Year, everyone and may you have a truly blessed year. ^^

It’s the second day of 2014 and all of the primary/secondary students are going back to school. I went to the gym instead since my college starts on the second week of January. The feeling is great because I’m finally 18 this year. I don’t know why I feel great about this but I just do.

It has been 5 months since my accident which means I haven’t been to the gym for about 5 months. It’s good to be back as I’ve lacked a lot of training. I had a thought that I might gain weight and some extra fat during my absence in the gym but gladly, I managed to ‘keep fit’ somehow. :3

Anyways, jogging on the treadmill is always the most tiring part of my workout in the gym. It's just my warm-up though. O.o I run for about 10 minutes with an average of 8km/h and ‘cool down’ for about 4-5minutes.  As I was jogging and looking out through the windows, I watched numerous cars passing by the busy road and a nostalgic feeling washed over me. 

Every single minute of my life, I was thinking of her. When I feel tired and was about to give up, she would be my motivation to keep going. I would keep pushing myself harder and harder so I could be strong and wise enough to protect her, one day. Studies, work outs and everything, she became my motivation to strive not only for my future but ’ours’.

Although, time has passed and things have changed. Thus, those were just memories of my past. It’s a new year and that means it’s time for a change. I have to find a new reason to motivate myself for a better tomorrow.   

Farewell

10/12/2013 – Tuesday

     It is finally over. It feels so unreal but it is real. My high school life is finally over. SPM has ended since last week and now I’m waiting to face my next phase of life. I’m going to be a college student!!! ^^

     I feel like I’m 13 years old right now but I’m actually turning 18 in a few months….  It feels so strange to be at this age… I used to look at my seniors and wonder how they think when they were at this age but now, it’s my turn and I feel strange. I don’t feel like I’m at this age at all.. ><

     The end of high school… would also mean the ending between my high school love and I.

Here’s the summary of my memory about her:

We met in class when I switched from Science stream to Commerce stream. I got to know her through Facebook when she was sick one day. Every single day, we would chat and I would learn about her little by little. Her past, her life, her feelings, her likes, her dislikes and everything about her I want to know about her.

When she is sick, I would be worried till I have sleepless nights.  When she share her pains with me, I would want to replace her and suffer the pain for her. When she cries, I want protect her with everything I have. When she is happy, my heart just feels so enlightened and when she smiles, my whole world felt perfect.

When we were 16, she fainted for one whole day and my heart was unrest till I received her reply. We had arguments because I couldn’t control myself. I felt jealous because there are other guys better at taking care of her than me, I felt I wasn’t needed and so, I kept my distance. All I ever wanted was her to be happy and safe.  In the end, she was the one who said sorry while I was at fault. Not long after that, I confessed to her and she rejected me. Being rejected felt so painful that the scar near my wrist (accident) feels painless.

When we were 17, we became friends again. It was hard and awkward at first… Looking at her and trying my best to show her my smile as she walks pasts me every day during assembly. I manage to stand my ground momentarily but her smile just renders me defenseless.  I felt like we did so many things together. I asked her to tutor me Maths even when I don’t need it but just because I want to be with her. This whole year long, I tried so hard to show her how much I love her.  I kept telling her that I don’t want her to care for me and just stay happy but actually…. I wanted her to care for me, I wanted her to love me as much as I loved her, I wanted to call her mine and I wanted her to call me hers. I tried to hide the fact that I am selfish because I expect something from her after giving to her.

Yes, it is true that I told others about me treating you as a friend. She, herself treated me like a friend and that is why I lie to myself that she is only a friend to me. After a series of events, I hated her for some time but in the end, my love for her is stronger than my hate for her. I say I don't care, but my heart feels like it's going to burst when I hold myself back from caring....

Even so, this journey, ended with a simple goodbye and that is the end for ‘us’ and ‘love’.

     My wishes for her right now… It’s still the same. I wish that she will always be happy and safe. I wish that her smile will never fade away. I wish that one day, she will meet her prince whom will love her and protect her as his princess.

The story ends here. Hope we will meet again one day with a cheerful and genuine smile. ^^

Thank you and farewell, Yong Pue Yee, my high school love.