13/11/2013
– Wednesday
What an interesting day it was today. Well
this is the second week of SPM and it would be one of my toughest exam week to
tackle. History and accounts, what a remarkable combo they make indeed. Not
only that, the first day would be hell for us. History Paper 1 which consists
of objective questions lasted for an hour which would be 8AM-9AM. History Paper 2 which consists of structural
and essay questions later on continued from 10AM-12.30PM. We get an hour for lunch break before heading back for Accounts Paper 2 which consists of subjective
questions (We need to be in the exam room 20 minutes before it starts).
Honestly, History exam went quite smoothly
for me. The objective questions weren’t that hard and the subjective questions
were favorable…enough for me. Although, I did seriously bad for Accounts Paper
2. Oh my…It suddenly feels like Add Maths and how does Add Maths feels to me? I
pretty much blank out most of the questions. So yeah, more empty questions than
answered questions. The funniest things is….30 minutes before the exam ended, I
froze.
I literally froze on the spot… All my
nerves suddenly stopped working. My legs, feet, fingers and brain were stunned. My head
felt so horribly dizzy that I can just collapse on the spot. I fought on with
my will… I closed my eyes and tried my best to breathe deeply.
Stress consumed me. I was overly
emotionally stressed till this happens. It was so painful and tiring to not
black out. It felt as if something was banging my head really aggressively,
forcing me to be knocked out. My fingers were stunned in a curving upright
position, I had to literally use my other hand to move it back into place… My
nerves lost control, I couldn’t control my body even when I wanted to… :/ It
took me about 30 minutes to recover from ‘trying not to faint’. The examiners
gave me extra time to complete my exam but I couldn’t do it anyways, my mind
was too dizzy to think of anything at all.
The feeling was like during my accident when it happened… Although, everything happened too fast that time,so it was just a short
while and I blacked out but this time, it was different…. The feeling gradually
grew till it was so heavy for me to resist.
I was tempted to give up and just let it consume me, maybe I should have
done that because I didn’t do anything with my exam paper after I recovered
anyways. This immense feeling, it was so intense that what an experience it is
for me because I’ve never been in such a long battle with stress before.
Anyways, my dad fetched me after school
even when I drove here by myself but I guess I wasn’t in any good condition to
drive. Oh my cat, what a horrible mistake I made. He nagged me non-stop just as
I got in the car. I just went through such a frickishly stressful moment and
here he is nagging me endlessly even when I begged him to shut up. Gave up, I
just jumped off the car and went home on my home. I ran as fast as I could and
screamed, ignoring the passing cars just to rant out my frustration even when
my mind was in a daze.
A student
wearing his uniform (with necktie and stuff) while running and shouting, madly?
Go figure.
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