First Senior....

This post i dedicate to you. :) Hope you'll try to understand. I'll give you a full explanation.

So recently, there's this girl who's my senior. Yeah... she kinda asked me the same question she asked me few months back. What happened was, i deleted her.

Personally, i've never agreed to a relationship where the boy is the younger person whereas the girl is the elder one. Despite that, i'm gonna tell you something of my past... another girl who i've had 'interest' before. (Not 'her)

Truthfully, i've never had any interest in her before in any ways as she's my senior and ordinary friend. Then little by little, i tend to took notice of her and got interested... She is quite a short girl, cute, have this kitty mouth when she smiles and most of all an interesting person. What got me interested was obviously her special personality, there's this... cold but yet warm feeling....hard to explain >_<.

So anyways, somehow i started erm... observing her (please don't feel weird as i tend to observe alot).
Even though she is older, it may sound stupid and weird but i think i had a crush on her. Just a tiny one though. It began to grow, like for 'her', when i start seeing her as this fragile girl.... She just looks like this type of girl who needs someone to care and protect her and that seriously stirs me up. We eventually chat more (live and Facebook) and got along more.

Alright i admit, the sensation of being with her felt great even though she's older than me by ....2 years if i'm not mistaken. But the thing is, she hates me....in a way.. i think.

Here's the main answer to your question btw:
I tried really hard to know you more and get closer to you but you kept somehow despising me.... in a way... hating me.
I really don't understand what i do wrong, was i over annoying?
Did i meddle in your business too much?
Did i tease you too much?

You even misunderstood me. Remember the time when you lectured me about the difference between me and Xiao Thong? You don't even know who i am, and yet you say i'm some kind of horrible person. Uncaring or sort.

Do you remember, on Kem Ketua Kelas or smtg, you kept spraying water at me? You asked me, why i won't you react and just sit there and let you spray? That i leave it for you to answer.

It hurt me a lot, you know? Someone that you admire, someone your caring from deep down your heart is over there despising you. You were the first and probably last senior i had a crush on.(Please don't be disgusted, i'm just telling you the truth.)

I was so so angry, you asked me not to care anymore and not to disturb you anymore. So i did as i was told, i deleted you. From everything relating to me, I don't know you anymore. In the end, your still asking me 'Why did you delete me?'. Xiao Thong even kept pursuing me for your question. (Though i couldn't be bothered with her question).

But whatever, everything is over and let's treat nothing happened before. Your CLH, my senior schoolmate and prefect. :)