Ratty Culprits!!!

 My kitchen.

 One of da rats going to face the Charges~

Be strong and face the consequences Rat! (Sorry for the blurriness)

Arh...Finally!!! Caught the second and third rat from it's Colony.

*Didn't manage to take picture of the first one*

Well this problem had been causing me problems for MONTHS!

There is like a group of RATS living on my ceiling for the past few months.

And yes, i said ceiling as in my wooden ceiling~ 

Around midnight or night, when it's quiet and dark.

They'll know when to move out and search for food in the kitchen...

It's normal for me to hear their little paws crawling on my roof almost every night~ 

They tend to scratch the ceiling or squeak to each other.

Sometimes it even feels a little creepy when you're trying to sleep. :/

*Thinking of the first night when they started living up there*

I was like "What in the world....is that noise?"  >"_"<(Frowning/grumpy) face

By the way, the first rat my MOM caught was about few weeks ago.

Then Wai Seng(someone i should probably call a 'father') came back and took over the OPERATION.

He used the same traps(additional traps) with different baits all around the kitchen.

I went out with a community(consist of people you would call family members).

Then when we came back, the rats were there squeaking loudly. (Both were still alive)

Owh...how my dog went crazy for those rats... =_=

Anyways, Wai Seng just wrapped them up in plastic bags and threw them somewhere.

If they somehow manage to survive and escape, bless them~

If they come back to my ceiling, curse them =_=.

Endurance...

Sometimes it's just hard to be WITHOUT you,
day and night...i'll be sulking inside my own world dreaming of being with you.

I lose the sense of reality, lost in thoughts of you...
Yet still, none of those mean anything to you...

My world's color?
Normally it's black and white...
Though sometimes it has all the colors~

It has just been one year, yet it felt more than that...
Till the day i meet you, i hope you'll know how to fix me.
Either fix me good or at least patch me up to how i used to be.

Foolish, childish, annoying and most of all FUN.
I missed those feelings...
I've been drown in work these days, even ignoring my studies sometimes.
The seriousness creeps my customers...that's not a good sign...

My entertainment?
There is nothing more entertaining than playing games or watching anime....for now~
Pray that i won't enjoy seeing the bloodshed of others in the future...

Respond to my feelings with honesty and bravery according to your will, that is all i ask of you....

Silent Appearance, Noisy Heart....

Those quiet days when i just watch over her in the class,

Makes me feels like an idiot right now.

Those days, with stern and firm looks on my face.

Appearance that means nothing but what was underneath that was a world of feelings.

Love and Pain. 

Teenagers, it's not a blissful thing to be.

I'm foolish, young, easily influenced and easily hurt.

I'd rather be a kid, so i won't have to experience these pathetic experience. 

Liking a girl that doesn't like you back,

and you know of it,

it's rather a stupid thing to do.

That FACT, i agree yet i'm the one foolish enough to do it. 

I have to thanks her for being so considerate, really.

None of it is her fault.

I'm the one who probably thinks too much about fantasies and miracles that may happen.

So i curse myself for meeting her, knowing her, befriending with her and finally falling in love with her~

It's funny, my dear senior Erin. Told me to keep on going. 

But if she thinks of it my way, keep doing the same thing that you're sure will result to failure.

Isn't it something an idiot would do?

I'm an idiot...and i want to stop being one~

Can anyone fill my empty heart? :( 

Investment : Game Console/Girls

Remember few months ago, when i said what will i do with the salary i earn?
You probably may not remember but... i do :D

Well originally those money were kept to bring girls out on dates... >_<
Though since i would probably not get a girlfriend like...ever?
So i decided to invest in a game console instead!!!

Say hi to my new PS VITA!!! (Say hi to yourself too PS VITA :P)

I think PS VITA suits me best,
since i'm more of a guy who is usually not in the house (i think?)
Travelling~
Something portable like this would be awesome to kill my boredom while waiting in bus or something~

PS3 is great too but since i can't bring it around, i might as well get one of this.

So..... the choice between Game Console versus Girls.
Why i chose Game Console as the winner?

First of all, it won't break my heart..even if it spoils, at least the damage done is not so heavy~

Second, It's more long lasting and trustable.
Relationships are unstable and Game Consoles won't 'dump' me.

Finally, Game Consoles won't demand nor expect anything out from me except for giving me enjoyment.
Girls tend to expect 'miracles' from their 'so called' loved ones while game consoles, they just give us whatever we ask for and we just enjoy it!


Oh yeah....by the way, i'm broke once again after buying this~  >_<

A Good yet Bad day~

Today was supposed to be a great day yet it turned out horrible in the end.

I took a day off from my work to go on a trip with my family and relatives.

They planned to go Forest Research Institute Malaysia for jogging & jungle trekking.

It was fun, climbing on rocky terrains and stuff~

We got to play at a waterfall, i climbed to the point where there it is fenced >_<

 The Waterfall area in Sepia color.

 Near the fenced. (Took some effort to climb here)

Teddie at that area! 

Well anyways, after everything is done.

Went to cousin's house to bath before heading off again to Low Yat (IT mall in Kuala Lumpur)

Reason for going there : Buying ANOTHER new laptop for the eldest BITCH in my family.

We went for lunch first at Wong Kok Char Chan Teng.

My drink in 3 different colors : Sepia

Black and White

Originial colour~ :P (Btw, this drink is called 'Gentleman')

Cheese Baked Rice  

Apparently her old one was spoiled somehow and naturally the father would buy his favourite daughter a new one~

The last time who bought a new laptop in our family was her and once again it is her again.

I didn't need a new one since my old one is working a bit retarded though it's still working~

But....

I finally ended up buying PS VITA!!!

Saved my salary for months(blood and sweat) to buy this~

3 hours later when we met up with my sister and cousin, she still hasn't even decided which laptop to buy...

O.O....

Though in the car she already said she had one in mind already...(What happened to that?!)

Nevermind, fair enough i'm still patient enough since i got my PS Vita in hand already.

Who would have thought that she bought a different brand laptop.

Guess what? It's not compatible with Windows 7!!!

We waited about 3 more hours just for those idiots to figure out that the laptop my PARENTS bought is not able to install Windows 7!!! 

It was getting late, i haven't had my dinner, i got work tomorrow, my dog is hungry at home, i'm tired and i just want to be at home.

I got so impatient and blasted a whole bunch of realistic comments at my mom.

Woohoo, she replied me to get a LRT and go home myself.

Makes sense doesn't it?

She wouldn't let her 21 year old daughter go take a train home while she's suggesting that her 16 year old son to go back himself?

What's more, a laptop that hasn't even been brought is somewhat already broken....

Is it my fault for blaming the BITCH that she should have gone with her first choice?

It it my fault for blaming the BITCH who should have chosen a laptop EARLIER in the first place?

Maybe or maybe not? You decide.

My mom said to me "Do you want to upset the whole family just because your upset?"

Well guess that means, whatever pain and anger you have... keep it to yourself.

Don't share it with others so we can be happy.

It sounds to me like 'you should go ahead and die if you want while we keep living'. 

How sweet, right? :)

I learned that families aren't supposed to share their emotions and thoughts openly.

So we should always keep it to ourselves and suffer alone. 

Families are supposed to practice 'favouritism' and side with the one they prefer.

Why can't they, once in THEIR life they actually listen to me instead? 

At least consider everything that i'm saying are just facts and i'm just being realistic!

It maybe a little insulting but the TRUTH is always a screwed up thing!

My realistic thoughts are just rubbish against their owh so sweet ELDEST daughter.

Every time i will be wrong, every time i will be taken for granted and every time i will be ignored.

Once again i will say this, i can't wait to grow old, earn my own money, get my own life and be gone from this screwed up of a community called 'family'. 

Hari Raya Holidays~

Well Hari Raya holiday is here and that means 1 week holiday!!!
But i'm gonna end up spending it working anyways, so no point me saying that >_<~

Anyways, i managed to snap some pictures of my workplace today.
Today kinda free because my friend recommended several other part-timer (he thought i not working today)
So i just work half day. :P
Since there was about 2 extra people doing my job,
He just gave me a camera, and said "Help go take pictures"

I ended up having some fun of myself going into the field and taking pictures.
So here are some pictures i managed to take~

 (I too wear that orange shirt)

 Players testing marker. 

 Getting ready before Game On!

 Strategy Discussion

 Bang? >_<

Well after work,
got back home,
then pick up my dog from her surgery.
And yes, i said surgery~ (some surgery to make her unable give birth or something)
Awh..my poor doggie :/

After that, my family and i went to 1Utama,
actually i didn't want to go so far...i'm tired from work...
But the 'QUEEN' (eldest daughter of the family) insisted coz our cousins are there~

 My first eva Baskin Robin's purchase!

 Friggin costed me RM16 for this ==...

 Yumcha while reading Mr Mystery : The Mystery Of The Gangster's Gun

 My dinner~

 Playing with fire, maybe? XD

 Lols, pizza in a Japanese Restaurant?

 The Salad of the Casual Set for 2~

This is one messed up Ramen ==...

Yes, i am a fan of Mr Mystery.

Am always excited for new series~

By the way, while the other went for shopping.

I just went to Food Republic with my cousin in 1Utama to have some quiet time with my BOOK!

Owh yeah....for those who flirt on the escalator...please restrain yourselves from doing that...
Because you'll really annoy those single guys out there who are just standing behind you =_=...
Happen to saw a couple flirting owh so sweetly right in front of my on the escalator....
Argh...am i jealous or just annoyed?
I don't know!!!

In an unrelated story:

Sometimes when i'm down...

sometimes when everything goes wrong,

Sometimes...sometimes....when i just care too much for someone...

I'll just want to hide under my table, hiding myself from the world.... 

But i usually ended up on my bed, lying down mindlessly until i eventually falls asleep. >_<

Shrouded in darkness, sometimes i just want to escape reality....

Who really am i?

Fuuuu.... a journey to self-discovery is very NOT simple,
till now, i could never understand even myself~
I don't even know what i want nor what i need

Some people say i'm a good person,
Some say i'm evil,
Some say i'm too playful,
Some say i'm mature,
Some say i'm a weirdo,
Some say i'm an emo
and
Some just think of me as a bother.

They say all that, and yet i myself don't know which is me...
Is it based on people's opinion or mine?
Because if it's based on mine, i really don't know who am i.

It's odd usually people say, the one who understands you the most is yourself.
I can't use that for me.

I tend to want to suicide sometimes~
Yet i want to achieve my dreams of becoming a successful person...
What do i want in the future?
A good career, decent financial status, a loyal wife that can take care of me and maybe some kids?
That's not too much to ask, is it?

But anyways, as a teenager.
My life is so complicated sometimes.
I do stupid stuff that others don't.
I think differently from how others think.
I have no talents, low grades and bad at sports.

It's funny how sometimes when i care so much for someone,
the other person just doesn't bother.
All the things i do is for naught.
I'll just end up hurting myself or the other person.

I'll give up everything just for one thing.
In the end, it'll just disappoint me and give me a 'what are you talking about?' look.
It was like few months ago.... i threw everything aside just for a girl and all i got was...
Disappointment, confusion and depression.
I don't blame her though, i was just blind at that time... I'm always blind when things matters the most~

Insults and taunts.
I don't feel anything from them.
I've been insulted all my life by my so called 'friends' and even my own family.
I've just been neutralized....

Sometimes i just feel like i'm not from this world, so lifeless...
I have no meaning, even death is just another question of when will it happen?
Why must i exist?

Who am i...?

Prayers

My Phone's Wallpaper!!!

As most of you know, or some of you may not know.

I am a Christian. A proud to be one anyways.

This week i'm gonna share a simple story or what i like to call simple 'miracle' done by God.

The simple miracle happened because me and some other people prayed for our friend. 

I think this suits a certain verse in the bible : 

"So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Luke 11:9

Anyways, here is how this week's story is....

It kinda started at around midnight on a Friday night.

My friend the 'sick girl' kinda post on Facebook saying she's suddenly feeling ill.

It didn't really bother me because it frequently happens. 

Little did i know on the next day when i text her...

Her brother replied (using her phone) saying she was unconscious since last night till Sat morning!!!

*Please don't think she fell asleep*

I started to get worried and ask how was she and all...

Even her brother kept her hospital location a secret for her as usual.

(don't know why, she won't let any friends visit her)

Well i thought she'll eventually get up sooner or later.

But after i went back home at about 11.00 smtg in the night. (Finish dinner with cousins)

*Took the day off from work* 

I was like "What the miao?! How long has it been since she fainted?!"

Her brother was like posting a status using her Facebook saying she's unconscious and all.

(Why the heck is he using her FB and holding her cellphone?)

He said "If she is unconscious for 48 hours, her life will be at risk." (20hours passed)

I just paralyzed on my seat....i didn't know what i can do, suddenly start thinking of all the possible things that might happen to her. 

I lie on my bed, just thinking and thinking....

Finally, i sat up and made a decision.

It may seem like a lousy thing to do for mortal thoughts.

But as a Christian, i believe it is the most useful thing to do.

I sincerely prayed and just put all of my faith into God. 

Drips of tears rolled down my cheeks. (Wow, so emotional >_<)

*For your information, i wasn't crying okay!!!*

The night was long... i couldn't stop thinking of the possibilities..

Next morning, i texted her cell again...

Still it was just her brother. 

Even at work, i felt so lifeless.

Then about noon, it was her who texted back.

(Approximately 36 hours later)

All i could think of was, 'Thank God'.

All the stress that was building up just vanished.

It's like i have never felt so relieved before.

I suddenly felt sleepy too!!! coz i didn't sleep that well last night!

*Ended up sleeping at work for few minutes*

So guys, i hope my story got to inspire some of you to always keep your hopes up.

And just have faith!

Amnesia

Those memories.... i have just been holding onto to them...
It's about 10 months since we last met and almost an entire year.
I have never missed anyone as much as i miss you...
I feel stupid though.
Holding on to false hope even though i know there no hope.

I wonder why am i doing that.
You and i told me to let go, forget those unnecessary memories.
Yet i tend to keep remembering them back.
Every single time, as i was about to ignore and forget all the thing between us.
A dream would pop out and make me think of you non-stop...

It's making me so depressed everyday...
I may not show it...but inside...i'm think i'm crying everyday...
Like a puppy missing his master...
Or a heart beating without a reason...

\I don't know what's so special about you actually..
Your nothing special, compared to many girls out there..
But i'm still going crazy over you.

I told you i love you, miss you and all sorts.
Even if you told me you can't do the same for me.
I still continued doing that for some unknown reason.
It's really a stupid thing to do....

I hope....
Maybe one fine day, an accident or mishap happened to me...
Put me into amnesia just about you?
Forget that i know you, forget everything about you, forget everything that happened...
Instead of me disappearing, wouldn't it be easier if i just got amnesia?
Life would be more relaxed...less stressful...no unnecessary depression~

The fact that we're separated by the sea?
You're not that far actually...
But i feel as if your in another world...
Unable to reach, unable to meet...unable to touch...

Some day when i'm totally sick of this world already,
I would probably raid a police station or anywhere with REAL deadly guns.
Point it to my head, pull the trigger and die an instant yet merciful death.
That day doesn't feel so long to me...
End this meaningless life of mine.
I'm meaningless to this world anyways...
I have no reason but doubts instead for living.
I curse instead of bless for being born and alive.

It's like what some people in the show say.
Put you out of your misery.

So, i'll probably put myself out of misery too....  someday.....